Bennett joins NASA.
Laughing at 4am. #icant
Hello…its morning im at the salon bored but thinking . These pass few days have been rather interesting. Idk if lifes playing a trick on me or if i should just be happy. I never new a person could be afraid of being happy.. but happiness is rare. Theres just so much negative energy in this world its just hard to find one truly genuine happy person. This all has to do with my love life.when people find their significant other its like a bonus in life i keep thinking maybe this is mine but….my fear of happy…no wait my fear of being comfortable is overwhelming. Its like i can nvr be comfortable or just relax because of my past. Im just use to things going wrong . To things being too good to be true ….for things slipping through my hands..not because of me because of the world . How does one even hold onto love? How does one even know its true? Those are lousy questions ….how about this how can one be secure its love? I feel lik it takes a life threatening experience but thats very theatrical and hollywood…and i dont think thats correct ….i guess its the matter of action . Seeing is believing , chivalry is not dead? May all the cliches be true. You know its love when prince Charming is. Waiting at your door step…and.underneath your window..right? With plans to possibly steal your heart…well atleast a girl can pray.
Hmmm funny i’d run into this….
Gimme please oh please
I had to take the time out to say this is dangerous . I have no one to cry wolf to..and these dreams well they aren’t real right? Everything in my body.is keeping it cordial no one knows how im really feeling right now but if i told them no.one would believe me
Only if my hands look like this tom morning goodnight and yay 3hr sleep
@pholiciousducky lol im happy your not making fun of me. Im truthfully just a kid at heart outside of my work ethic. But so glad you enjoyed my post . I always wondered if anyone read my random ramble lol
If u know me u know xmas eve is my favorite holiday . Not Christmas but Christmas eve. Its the excitement anticipation and celebrating that really gets my heart.
I had the best memories as a kid about it. The whole neighborhood and family in my gmas small ass apartment spanish greek and hiphop music…and everyone dressed to the nines . And yes i said to the 9s lol.
Sadly this is another year im working on my favorite holiday and probably cooking all night. But in my heart i want to do something that would light my heart as it was as a child. I wanna see the tree at the Rockefeller center nyc!! However im so damn particular .. i wanna go with a man. Preferably one i like. Haha in case there’s mistletoe lol im so corny i knowwww. But i never kissed anyone under the mistletoe i want to…so i will put that on my bucketlist. But more importantly back to xmas eve and the tree i wanna see it with someone special , take a few photos i can cherish on my own and walk around the city hit a few bars …shop maybe ? Maybe next yr. Although i said that last year. Lmao….i cant even remember last Christmas i think i left the state? Excuse my memory but yea im just bummed i couldn’t enjoy the holiday season as i wanted to. Ive been working soooooo much. Trying to buy everyone superb gifts and idk i didnt even really ask for anything for Christmas but now i have this list n im just like shoooootttt why i am so nice i need to open up my mouth nxt time lol. But hell ill be happy with anything. I just wanna make xmas eve last forever its my favorite day ever…next to my bday :p happy holidays all!